Tagged: happiness
Why wistful?
Wild Flower Fields by Carlinn of Superficial Girls
You’re sad because the past won’t come back to make you happy.
As though the past was the right and only source.
You think because the good times of the past are gone
you won’t be getting any good times now or in the future
As if your sippy cup had been emptied
by your unready lips, many tears ago.
But what made you think that as you grow wiser
and your understanding expands
that the universe would withhold new opportunities?
What made you wish, sad and wistful
that those joyful experiences
had come now that you’re more prepared to appreciate them?
How could you think that now that you are better,
And stronger, more evolved, and happier, and aware,
opportunities would cease to arise?
And good times were over
and happiness, unattainable?
That’s nonsense.
You’re smarter than that, silly girl
Why would you think that the fountain stopped flowing
just as you became ready to dip in your feet?
Why would the party be over, and the guests out on the street
right when you decided to start dancing?
Be steady, my darling
There is no need to fear
No chance will be missed when you’re looking
Open your eyes on your face, mind and heart
the beauty doesn’t hide, it loves to be seen
Just as then, so it’s now
Just as beautiful as you wish
What made you think it was over?
Happy kernels!
According to my best friend (laptop), aka the included dictionary from Macintosh, a kernel is:
• a softer, usually edible part of a nut, seed, or fruit stone contained within its hard shell.
• [ in sing. ] the central or most important part of something: this is the kernel of the argument.
So I thought it’d be cute to name the list of things I love currently,
HAPPY KERNELS!
Here we go:
- Getting into the habit of dancing regularly again. I dance around in my room, probably causing the people on the floor below to slowly turn into Mr. Heckles, but I don’t care. I’m far too happy hopping around, racing my heart beat, dancing to the music… Aaaahhhh. You should be daaaaaaaanciiiiin’- yeaaaaah!
- Throwback to the nineties: Rewatching episodes of Miami 7, LA 7, Hollywood 7, etc 7 and laughing along with the super silly humor and innocent jokes.
- Yoga: Doing a simplified version of the sun salutation, customized to fit my own body and its limitations (PH) and feeling great during the whole session. I feel like I connect spiritually and tune into a more peaceful state of being.
- Meditating: I did a special session last Sunday and it gave me much peace and charged me of wholesome energy to go through a week of foreign language lessons (sometimes being in front of a class and trying your best to teach them the language when their heads are like rock, can be a bit draining, but thanks to that meditation I felt very relaxed and equanimous).
- Music acquisition spree: Weeeeeeeee. New music. Please feel free to make it rain iTunes cards this way.
- More dancing. YES MOAR. Learning dance steps to songs like a teenager for the dance festival. It’s so much fun.
- New role models: See, I was starting to feel frustrated when watching interviews with actors and actresses I like, realizing upon listening to them talk, that the charm I’d built about them in my mind had vanished, to give room to a very imperfect and ego-trippy person who just didn’t inspire me much in my own human development. And then I watched the buddhist lama Tony Karam talk about how Buddhism changed his life. His way of speaking is so clear and rich, yet concise that it was instantly clear in my mind what kind of role models I am looking to get my inspiration from: human beings who are genuine and authentic and who do just the exact amount of ‘thing’, no more, no less, but just exactly the right amount, and thus come across as so real and my respect for them is naturally instant. Afterwards, I rewatched Adam Lambert performing Marry The Night on Glee, reliving the enjoyment from the first time I saw the episode, and noticing his charisma. I didn’t know much about him, so I watched interviews of him on youtube and found out how down-to-earth he seems to be, how charming and genuine, and real, and I thought “yes, I’ll take this one, too.” Then! Watching his performance on the Graham Norton Show lead me to watching the entire episode featuring Will.I.Am and Miriam Margolyes, and it was the most hilarious thing I’ve seen all month. Turns out Miriam Margolyes is very funny and also ballsy, and Will.I.Am is selfless and chill and looks cute when he laughs, just like a kid, man. So there you have it, a small list of my current Role Models/Human Inspirations.
Thanks for reading. And I hope your life gets more beautiful this week, little thing by little thing, because together they make a mammoth sack of Happy Kernels.
Yay!
Ale
The Beauty-Fuller Life Challenge: Day 16
Hey everyone. How are you? How’s the weekend been so far? I hope terrific :).
Today’s progress:
♡ Got up early and had time to leisurely take a shower, get ready and have breakfast before work. Doing things like this, instead of in a rush, is a huge blessing. I have a tendency to hurry and get all anxious about getting places, whether or not I am running late, so it really helps to have time. Another thing that would help would be to learn to be at peace no matter what time it is!
♡ Work at the language school was good. The kids were absolute ANGELS today. I don’t mean they didn’t talk, but they were so willing to participate, and the lesson just flowed almost seamlessly. They’re great kids. Today’s class is the kind that makes me happy about teaching (and teaching children specifically). Once you get in the same tune, communication gets so much better and everyone is motivated to work and go in the same direction.
♡ Both breakfast and lunch were super tummy filling and delicious. I kinda failed at dinner, eating only popcorn and green tea (I was at the movies), but oh well!
♡ Went to see ‘Catching Fire’ with a girl friend. We both really liked it and then she asked if there was anything that had been omitted from the movie that was in the books, and I was happy to go off about that for a bit.
♡ Made 2 more bracelets for fundraising today.
♡ Played the guitar a bit and noticed that it didn’t hurt as much and the strings felt softer to my fingertips. I do wonder if those mechanography exercises are actually making my fingers stronger. That would be crazy, though, to have them become stronger in less than a week. But hey! I believe in the existence of aliens, so in my world, everything is possible! You go, my spidery fingers, you go!
Saw this. And why didn’t anyone tell me Katy Perry had released the ‘Unconditionally’ music video/ single?! Where was I? In space? That’s one of my favorite songs in the album.; it’s so beautiful. If you haven’t heard it, please take a seat and listen now while watching the gorgeous video:
And here’s the lyric video:
Thank you, lovelies. And good night!
Listen to that song.
Alejandra
The Beauty-fuller Life Challenge: Days 12 & 13
November 18th
♡ National day off (actually, the 20th, but they move it to the closest Monday) so no work. My family spent great part of the afternoon celebrating my brother’s birthday. We feasted on pizza, then hit the department store for my parents to redeem their presents to my brother, then came home to eat slices of cheese pie. The learning/growth experience came when I realized early on after leaving the house at 1pm, that I had forgotten my cellphone at the house. Until we came back at 5:45pm, I was disconnected from whatsapp, tumblr, candy crush, and in general, the internet. I noted I had several urges throughout the afternoon to whip out my cellphone to do whatever with it, but since I didn’t have it, I was able to be truly present with my family. For example, my dad and I joked and had conversations while my brother tried on things, instead of just being there and getting distracted with pocket-size technology. It was nice to find out I don’t disintegrate if I don’t have my smarthphone at hand.
♡ Wrote down the text and chose the image for this year’s poster of the Pulmonary Hypertension Awareness Walk in my city. My brother will make the poster and we’ll share it on facebook to invite our friends and family to the event. It’s in two weeks, and there’s some preparation to do and little gifts to make. Last year I made keychains:
and some cupcakes, and my mom had bookmarks printed. This year I’m thinking maybe cut-out cookies in the shape of an awareness ribbon (but I don’t have a cookie cutter, so I’d cut them with a knife), or cupcakes again, and awareness bracelets, in addition to the few goods that were left over from last year’s Walk.
♡ Tuned my guitar and remembered the basic chords I know. The tips of my fingers are sore right now, which is okay, because calluses will be formed by this weekend if I keep this up.
♡ A sexy dinosaur wrote about her own realization of human’s potential, and how many of us let it go unused, wasted. She made radical decisions and is embarking on her own badass journey to unleash her grandiosity. Her words inspired me and reminded me why I decided to take this challenge. As she said, this generation feels a great need to get validated all the time, and it’s just never enough. We exist and we are capable of accomplishing great things, if only we decide to take the steps; what more validation do we need? Becoming better for the sake of making our lives count is enough, and even then we still get to inspire those around us to do the same.
♡ Started going through my clothes to decide what stays and what goes this year. I not only took out a few garments las night, but I also remembered some others that look very good, so I’ll try to find occasions to wear them.
November 19th
♡ Took photos of my surroundings. I especially loved getting to capture a couple of birds sitting just outside our house, on a rail. I’ll share the pictures with you soon.
♡ I used the Procrastination Pad technique, which I read about here. It is a most excellent tool. I wrote down several things to do later in the day, when I wasn’t working, which allowed me to continue my work without getting distracted.
♡ Played the guitar again, until it felt like my fingertips were about to start bleeding.
♡ I’m noticing I smile more when transitioning from one scene of my life to the other. For example, the other day I caught myself grinning with my whole face, feeling goofy, while I climbed in the car, just for no reason. Isn’t that great? I think so! Very much. This being is evolving, and growing, and becoming happier every day, and my heart is filling out with love.
♡ Went to a bead store to investigate about materials for the PH Awareness bracelets I wanna make. Today’s store is a small one, and didn’t carry awareness ribbon charms. But there’s a bigger store who was having a sale yesterday, which I’m hoping will still be on tomorrow, so I can stock up on charms and cord, and get workin’ on those babies, like a spider on speed.
Alright friends, thank you for reading. I hope your day unfolds magically, and that you’re filled with the audacity to follow the voice of your higher self.
Hugs,
Alejandra
PS: You go, Chloe Temtchine!
The Beauty-Fuller Life Challenge: Day 11
Sundaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
Sundae! 😀
Hello, my darlings! Let’s get right to it:
♡ Allowed myself to wake up a little later because I was exhausted.
♡ Got up, and chose to throw in some productivity into this Sunday, and put a load in the washing machine. Yay!
♡ Made and ate a breakfast of tomato omelette, and ‘sponge cake’ with almond milk.
♡ Took a shower, took my time, and got dressed to go visit my granfather with my dad.
♡ We visited my grandpa, who’s 87 years old, and gave him a letter I’d been keeping for an uncle for a while now. We stayed to chat for a bit and he was really happy that we came to visit him. I was glad to see him, too.
♡ After eating lunch, Ratatouille was on TV so I started watching it. My eyelids were super heavy, though, so I took a nap.
♡ Woke up and got working on my brother’s birthday cheese pie, and some banana cupcakes I’d been meaning to bake. I already tried the cupcakes, they’re good!
♡ Last night (it was late so it counts as today) I watched Breakfast At Tiffany’s for the first time. It’s bizarre and funny, I loved the asthetics, and I thought Holy Golightly was fabulous and endearing.
I’m well on my way moving forward in this challenge. There are things that bother me on an almost daily basis, which can serve to motivate me if I know how to use them in my favor. I’m talking about seeing other people, role models in a way, that have such seemingly beautiful and interesting lives, and it just bugs me that I keep searching for something that I can’t quite reach. Then I remember that any happiness that any living being can find, is always inside of them. Striving is good to a certain extent, but it does have to be done in moderation. If you go too far, you suddenly find yourself never being satisfied with what you accomplish. This is why it is of utmost importance to learn to accept our present, and be happy wherever and in whichever circumstances we are. That is the key to being happy.
Anyway. Gonna keep up the motion of picking up activities that will make life more beautiful, while at the same time remembering to be grateful for all the blessings that the universe showers me with. Because when I stop and think about it, I am very fortunate, and I am thankful for that.
Thank you for reading! I hope you had a lovely Sunday, with family, friends, pets, or with yourself. I hope you enjoy yourself wherever you are, and know to appreciate the little details.
Happy Monday!
Hugs,
Alejandra
The Beauty-Fuller Life Challenge: Day 10
It appears that this challenge is getting momentum, guys! Just like a big ship — like a spaceship defying gravity! So much is being gotten done (whew, that was a mouthful), and fresh energy is flowing in and out of me in a cycle of sweetness and amazingness.
I still get down sometimes, and not in the catchy, backstreet boys kind of way
but in the sad, mopey, planking on the floor refusing everything, kind of way. What I have noticed, however, and it is very important, is that after an emotional crisis, I recover around 3x as fast as before. It’s kind of a buildup that’s been going on for a very long time now, and not necessarily a product of 10 days of slight changes. The challenge does help, though, of that I’m certain.
Anywho! Now that I’ve shared that piece of progress with you, on with today’s hoorays!
☀ Tried Quinoa with chicken and vegetables. It was really good.
☀ English class went well, even if most students were lazy and absent, the one kid that did show up worked like a champion.
☀ My hair looked great. I only mention it because it doesn’t always settle when I let it down after I shower, but it just turned into cute waves/loose ringlets with the heat (it was around 28ºC) and I was delighted :3.
☀ Spent over an hour cleaning and rearranging my bathroom countertop (the cleaning of my spaces will have its own post with before & after photos), and it was very, very fulfilling.
☀ Listened to The Pretty Reckless. That Taylor has a voice like molasses: dark, thick and sweet. You might question the ‘sweet’, but her songs have that metal, hard rock melody that makes my hair dizzy with “Yeahh!!”
☀ Just ordered sushi. Enough said.
☀ Procrastination-caused, long-overdue-to-do-list-items being crossed off, like fruit slayed by a ninja sword on Fruit Ninja.
Have a revitalizing Sunday; nourish yourself with whatever it is that you need to finish this week right, and start next week on a delicious note.
🙂 Hugs & high fives,
Alejandra
The Beauty-Fuller Life Challenge: Day 9
♡ Friday morning started off earlier than is the norm for this sleeping beauty. That’s right. I set my alarm clock one hour and a half earlier, and got up without hitting the snooze button. *brushes shoulders off*
♡ The motivation behind this was taking a course on First Aid at Civil Protection headquarters. My cousin Carolina told me on Tuesday that she was going to take it, and I expressed my enthusiastic interest in learning about that kind of thing, so she said ‘why don’t you come along? I’ll pick you up on friday!’. I was looking forward to this course since Tuesday, so my excitement was well built up when the class started. We learned emergency levels, relearned the Red Cross’s emergency digits, we learned types of hemorrhages, to assess the situation and know when it’s safe and when it’s not safe to provide help, what to say in an emergency call, why medication is not supposed to be in a first aid kit, etc. It was all very basic stuff, but still useful and nice to know it. The next level, where we learn CPR, is on Nov. 29, and my cousin and I are gonna take it! That one is supposed to be a hands-on type of course, so I’m pumped. It makes me feel really good to know important information like First Aid, and how to act in emergencies, because it gives me the confidence of knowing I’d be able to help in case of an emergency. Information is power! But most of all, having a new tool to help people. Yes :).
♡ Today was also Glee night with the same cousin. We ate grated carrots with lemon and chili powder as a snack, and then crackers with cream cheese (we love our cream cheese). Unique (from Glee) is an awesome character and I’m glad that she’s a transgendered teenager facing transgendered teenager issues on a show watched by millions.
♡ Had a heartfelt talk with my dad about my job situation right now (I was feeling somewhat upset about it), and it was nice having him listen to me and then share his own experiences. Bottomline, we need to keep giving and working toward our goals, send out the right vibes, and they will come back around and the pieces will fall into place at the right moment. Everything flows the way it is supposed to. I mean, the Universe has been here for a while, so I’d bet it really does know what it’s doing.
♡ Discovered a couple of websites where you can learn and practice typing with all your fingers by doing some special exercises. For those of you who don’t know, I type like a T-Rex secretary. I’m looking to become more like an octopus secretary, if you know what I mean. The french movie Populaire inspired me, also! I might even do the nails…
The real deal is one color per nail, so it matches the areas on the keyboard each finger is supposed to tap, but this is the only still from the movie I could find! 🙂
Have a lovely Saturday! Make it lovely, dear…
Hugs & butterfly kisses,
Alejandra
Beauty-Fuller Life Challenge: Day 8
My decisions to make November 14th a good day, in which I felt good about myself and my life were:
♡ Got up from bed 15 minutes before the hour I set on my alarm clock.
♡ Ate a hearty breakfast consisting of: an apple, french toast, scrambled eggs with tomato and onion, refried beans, tortillas, and a glass of almond milk. HOW’S THAT FOR HEARTY? It’s even more awesome when comparing it to the meager breakfast have sometimes: a bowl of oatmeal. Yeah!
♡ Went to my morning office job, in which I help my mom with things of low difficulty. This time, however, I volunteered to help her with something else, since she is usually very, very busy. The person who does the grocery shopping for my grandma didn’t do it this week for some reason, and they were unreachable, so my mom was all worried and stressed out about having to do it herself (it’s obviously time consuming, especially because there’s a LOT to buy). So I told her ‘Momma, I’ll do it, give me the list’. And it was evident how the weight floated away from her shoulders. She was happy and was able to go on with her already tight schedule, and I was happy to help.
♡ After eating lunch, I have time to kill before I have to leave for my afternoon job. So I have the habit of browsing the internet or watching TV. This time I decided not to do any of those things, but instead came up with the notion of using my hours before my afternoon job for profuctive things, learning/studying (languages, science topics, useful facts, etc.), learning an instrument (there are 3 at my disposition), planning, cleaning/rearranging, and just anything and everything that is useful and helps me grow and be better. Hours after work would be left for mindless entertainment, if I’m so inclined. Doing things this way leaves me the choice of what activity to do when, depending on what I’m feeling like, which is more flexible to start with than a rigid schedule (ex. exercise at 7am, meditate at 8am, study languages at 2pm, play guitar at 4pm, etc.). Also knowing that come 7:30pm I can do whatever I want, is similar to the ‘free day’ that people get when they’re on a diet; they follow their diet strictly during the week, and are allowed to eat whatever they want on Sunday. It turns out that after a while, they don’t really even want to binge on junk food on ‘free day’, because they have found an appetite for healthier foods. If I apply this technique correctly, then I will see a change in my interests eventually, and I’ll be closer to my goal life.
♡ English class with my mother’s best friend went smoothly, and felt fruitful, apparently because we’re both trying to be better; her as a student, and me as a teacher.
♡ I noticed that people around me laughed more with each other (including me), which is proof of the change of emotional vibrations I’m producing and sending out. Turns out that enlisting everything you love and everything that makes you happy each day, has a radically positive effect on your entire world. Completely recommended, 10/10 :).
So this was Day 8 of the Beauty-Fuller Life Challenge! Tune in for Day 9! 😉
Love & hugs,
Alejandra
Holy Guacamole! The Beauty-fuller Life Challenge, Days 2, 3, 4 & 5
Sorry for the delay, guys! I actually had some technical difficulties, but I’m back and happy to write about the progress :).
It took me no longer than 24 hours to realize a challenge like this, or any kind for that matter, will always make you feel some resistance. Why? Because of your personal life momentum. Take mine, for example: a salad of Super Dull-o, with Miserable Croutons, and Stagnation Dressing. If you visualize this abstract momentum as a Titanic-sized ship, you’ll realize it will be a bit harder to veer its direction than you initially hoped.
Nevertheless, my dears, no one will change the course of a gargantuan ship by trying once and then deciding it’s too heavy to move, then sitting on the deck to sigh sadly. No, no. We be like Storm, from X-Men, fearless and powerful and capable of changing the weather, which is a pretty big deal. I mean, we won’t necessarily turn into mutants who can alter the forecast, but we can definitely become as great as we can be by being persistent on our goals.
Anyway. Here are the recaps:
November 8th
- Most of the day was spent wondering what extraordinary thing I would do that day, and getting caught up in unexpected loads of work. Then I realized it was okay and that I shouldn’t stress over something that I decided to do to make my life happier!
- Sushi at my cousin’s house, watching Glee’s “A Katy or a Gaga” (I’m a Katy, hands down) and laughing real hard at Darren Criss in a blonde wig, metallic half-pants, and pumps.
It must have been such a fun number to perform! He got the funniest costume and pulled it off with fierceness and humor. You go, Darren!
November 9th
- After teaching an english class to a small (thankfully) group of children (my Saturday job) I went home and got a message from my friend Pattie (because it’s more fun to spell it like that).
- Pattie and I went to have lunch to a restaurant and we both ordered enchiladas (which were delicious). Then we went to a shoe store to window shop, and then to the mall. She had two gorilla-sized ice cream scoops and I had a hot mug of Flamingo Chai Tea. We strolled around and walked into a couple stores, trying on clothes and finally deciding on purchasing a lovely somethin’ somethin’ each. The afternoon was lovely, and what I enjoyed most was our chat: it flowed particularly nicely, with honesty, daydreaming about the future, and laughter in equal amounts. Then she invited me to a Karaoke Bar/Club that night…
- After she left me at my house in the afternoon and I had a brief anxiety crisis of sorts (I got a nervous tic on my eye anticipating the night), I decided to calm down, breathe, and plan on having a fun time at the bar even if ‘the odds weren’t in my favor’. What I mean by that is that the ‘club scene’ is about 238,900 miles northwest of my comfort zone, I’m not close to Pattie’s group of friends who were going there that night, one thing is to do silly performances of Michael Jackson’s songs in my living room and another one entirely to sing on a stage in front of strangers, and I just didn’t know what to wear, and feared I’d bump into people I know and don’t feel comfortable around. Whew. Well, guess what? It turns out I didn’t have to worry about ANY of those things because I had a great time regardless of it not being ‘my scene’. I also was able to make peace with the fact that I’m just not a ‘party’ person, that it’s perfectly FINE to want to stay home and watch Netflix while eating snacks on a Saturday night, and also that I’m not a hermit who’s closed off from the world, since I accepted this invite and went there and had a good time, even if I’m never planning on going back to clubs because I appreciate having working lungs (too much cigarette smoke) and my ability to hear (Ross Geller understands.)
- While I waited for the night to arrive, I watched Boy Meets World and chatted with my friend Carlo, a dancer from Guadalajara. Hola, Carlo! 🙂
November 10th
- Had Gorditas for breakfast, went to get groceries at the supermarket with my mom, and ate a fantastic rice (beansprout, chard, chicken and soy sauce) made by her.
- Had a cathartic discussion with her. I love her and she loves me, and we are learning to get along better every day. She’s a strong, hard-working woman, and sometimes I forget to appreciate all she does. But she does it, and she’s still a softie at heart. Mama, I love you very much.
- Spent a long time reading ‘Catching Fire’ by Suzanne Collins. The rumors are true, it just keeps you glued to the pages. I can’t wait for the movie to come out!
- Hot dogs for dinner while watching Boy Meets World. (YEAH, I’M ON A PHASE. And it will continue because of the….Momentum.)
November 11th
- Working hard at the office
- Using the stairs most of the time. I work office jobs and spending so much time sitting is not good for the body, and since I’m not exercising currently, I am choosing the stairs as much as I can to add some physical activity into my routine.
- My dad drove me and picked me up at work in the afternoon, and we chatted nicely, and stopped for fresh bread (or more specifically ‘pan dulce’ in México).
- I am now looking forward to preparing and eating dinner, and resume reading ‘Catching Fire’.
Thank you for reading, lovely!
Cosmos flower: Joy in love and life
Have a wonderful night, day, afternoon, existence!
I’ll do my best to keep posting, because even if I’m not doing outrageously extraordinary things, this challenge I set for myself is motivating me to be more aware and in control of my daily decisions to paint a more beautiful life. Blogging about it is just the lil’ push that’s reminding me to do the best I can with my awareness, knowledge and understanding, etc., and so are you :).
With love & care,
Alejandra!
Current Happies!
- Trip to Philadelphia to take a Medical Interpretation Training Course. At first it was very challenging to adapt and be fully comfortable, but as the days passed, I found it easier to get around and make friends. I loved walking every day, taking the public transport, feeling safe in a beautiful city, feeling like I was living with purpose, enjoying every moment I spent there. Loved it. Thank you, Universe.
- Strawberry scented body butter from The Body Shop that makes me smell like strawberry yogurt.
- Finding out that I weight 50kg instead of 49kg. This is FANTABULOUS news! Makes me wanna stuff my face even more! (For those who might find this weird, someone being happy about gaining weight, well… I’ve been stick thin most of my life, and I really prefer me feminine curves).
- Cute as cherub female doggie walking up to me wagging her tail and lifting my crappy mood. Yay, doggie! Seriously, she’s my favorite from all the dogs in my street, she looks perpetually like a puppy and she’s docile and sweet, and just lovely. *nonsensical noises*
- Toast with almond butter and banana slices at breakfast. Y-u-m!
- Skirts. And I wonder, am I old already to be wearing skirt? Hell nah! But I wish I could wear them at my office job. I wish their dress code permitted wearing skirts in exchange for making me work in an office with no A/C. Come on guys.
- Getting into devouring books again. I read ‘And Then There Were None’ by Agatha Christie mostly in one afternoon.
- Daydreaming about an awesome job. Working as a personal interpreter for foreigners who don’t speak spanish. Tagging along with them wherever they go to help them communicate with people they encounter. Getting to dress up in the style of the Sexy Librarian. Getting a big, fat check on pay day. Having plenty of time left in the day/week to live and enjoy my life and fulfill my dreams. Sufficient paid vacations. *Dreamy sigh*
- Noticing how my self esteem has improved greatly. I now look at myself in the mirror and most times I say: ‘I look so freakin’ cute! I’m adorable, omg, so cute’, instead of the opposite.
- On that same note, I don’t feel like I need to force smiles lately, like I’ve learned to accept any mood I’m in, and communicate dryly as I tend to, without feeling guilty. See, I have a naturally serious face, but that doesn’t mean I’m angry or anything bad, it’s just my neutral face. I like being genuine, and I preach about being genuine a lot, and admire people who are, so I’m finally living up to my words. I even find that I’m…
- Laughing more often! And more light-heartedly and easily. How wonderful.
- Feeling connected to the Greater Life. I’m referring to the Universe, the Buddhas, Nature, etc. All that is Holy and Divine. I find that I can reach it anytime, when I’m quiet and still. And it’s always there.
- Teachings on Love by Thich Nhat Hanh. Such a beautiful and lovely book. It’s truly made a difference in the way I love. It’s easy to understand, and oh so helpful. I definitely recommend it. Especially if you’ve found yourself struggling with self love, or love in general.
- I’m so grateful for all the blessings that come my way. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
A Lotus Grows in the Mud 